With Nothing Better To Do.

I feel so pathetic right now. I'm being forced to return home cause of a 4hour long break, with nothing to do! So now I'm watching "You're Hired". It's a canto show, and it's completely hilarious! When life is boring, you should laugh. Laughing makes one happy. Awesome theory right? Haha. It's a no brainer.
Yesterday's injection left my upper left arm really sore. So during Public Speaking I kept massaging it. Thinking back, I must have looked like such a weirdo, but there really isn't anything I can do about it now. About the class, I thought it was really fun. The people were nice, well the people in my group were nice. We had to introduce ourselves, some form of ice-breaker I guess, so when this China girl went up, the teacher made her speak in Chinese, and she made ME translate to English. My Chinese, for lack of better words, really sucks. It's not like she couldn't speak in English. Everyone kept laughing, I think it's mostly cause the China girl had to translate what she said in Chinese to English for me so I could tell the class. I guess it was pretty funny. I wouldn't know, I was feeling way too dumb to feel anything else.
I feel really sorry for this classmate of mine. Her name's Jennifer and she's got cancer. It's really sad cause she's super smart and she's just my age. Apparently it's at it's 3rd stage, so she's going for repeated chemo. I'm not sure how she's doing, we're not close so it's really awkward to ask, "How's the treatment going? Chemo's not giving you any problems?". Chemo's no joy ride, I really hope she's strong enough cope with it. I heard alot of people suffer side effects from chemo. Whatever it is I really hope she'll get better soon. No one should have to suffer from cancer, it's a really evil thing.
I am so hungry right now, but I really can't eat anything. It's all part of my diet for the Japan trip. Haha. My Mom thinks it's stupid to eat only a little at night, and she's probably right, but I've already tried going to the gym. It doesn't make me loose any weight, it just makes my calves bigger. Now it's just a whole chunk of muscle! It's really depressing. I'm not anorexic or anything, but I really wish I was. I heard, from experience, it works. I know it's not right, but I'm desperate. So for now, I'm sticking with this.

I'm not sure if it's cause I have nothing better to do, but this is the 3rd day in a row I've been writing.
So school just started and just yesterday I attended "Public Speaking" lecture. It probably would have been much more fun if I actually knew someone there. The whole lecture hall was full but I didn't see a single person I knew, so I ended up sitting all alone. I felt so lame.
I just heard this term on TV, "Emotional Constipation". Haha. It's really funny and I think that's the phrase that fits me the best today.
Mushroomhead & Patrick decided not to go for today's lecture, but I really wanted to attend it, it's all about my turning over a new leaf thing. Shocking. I know. Like I was saying, so I went ahead for lecture with WQ & Zu. I'm not close to Zu at all. I think there's this kind of barrier between us. Sometimes I find her really tactless. Like today we were talking about NAFA. We were saying that it's probably not compulsory, since you'd have to register for it. So I said if could avoid it, why not? Then Zu decided to open her overly huge mouth and said "You wouldn't be able to pass anyway." I was really annoyed. Even if she was joking, she should learn to have more tact. She doesn't know me at all. What gives her the right to judge me? And I don't know why she's been sticking to WQ like glue since school started. WQ isn't much better. She tends to strike conversations with only Zu, plus she likes isolating people out of conversations. Which is totally annoying. Like today, she just walk off with Zu and leaving me standing behind. I was so annoyed by both of them. When lecture ended, I took off to meet R straight. I was really early and I ended up waiting at Starbucks for about an hour, but I really couldn't stand being near them. I might have ended up saying something I'd regret later on. I don't really like Zu all that much, I guess it's mostly cause we don't see eye to eye, so I really couldn't be bothered if I never spoke to her again, but WQ's a really good friend when she doesn't start acting like she knows loads. Emphasis on the word "act".
Lol. Okay I think I just needed to get that out of my system. To see my thoughts organised and written down. Actually I've already bitched enough about them to R, she made me laugh alot so I was able to let go of my annoyance. We spent almost the whole time at Starbucks. She kept going on about how I always order the same thing, and it's really boring. But caffeine makes me happy. Guess I should probably try to kick my so called addiction.
I know it's really stupid, but I'm so dreading tomorrow's injection. I really hate needles. All in all I've already gone for 2 this pass 2 months. Apparently you can only get an injection once a month. The reason behind my unwanted pricking? My super awesome Mom. Don't ask me how, but she talked my Dad into paying for this injection that prevents cervical cancer. It's not cheap. So my parents are actually paying someone to poke holes in their one and only precious daughter! I don't see the sense in it either. Well if I count tomorrow's, 3 down, 1 more to go. I'm not enthusiastic about it. R says I'm just being overly dramatic, but she's not the one getting her flesh ripped open tomorrow. I really don't like needles.

Stalking.

I just spent the pass hour looking through other people's blogs, and not just a mere mortals, their all models, or party girls.

I've got to say even though I know they're different people, it's really hard to tell them apart. They're all really skinny with huge eyes, sharp noses, and faces too white for their body's skin tone. Okay, I've got to admit I'm really jealous. Cause other then the models, the rest of them don't look like they have a job. They party the night away, so where do they get the energy to go to work the next day?

I don't read any of their entries cause it's mostly either in broken english or laced with stuff like "kekekeke" and it kinda irks me. What does "kekekeke" even mean anyways?! Besides, their blogs are 85% pictures & 15% words, and it's usually just captions describing the picture.

Anyway I read this entry from this overly boobed blogger and I didn't know if I should be laughing or impressed. The title of the entry? "Indulge in the Uniquely Singapore experience" I'm not sure if she's Singaporean, but I think our Tourism Board should hire her. She mentioned the Flyer, Little India, Chinatown, Night Safari, you name it! She's even got pictures of every single location she mentioned. She even gave a list of must try food. I'm not going into that. Just know that I had to scroll down for a really long time until the shopping section of her promotion came up. Now that I think of it, her descripstions looked like they were copied off some pamphlet. There were things like "The Singapore Flyer is the world's largest amazing wheel... Blah blah blah... Offers locals and tourists beautiful views of our island city... Blah blah blah..." Or something like that.

Haha. Okay this was why I really wanted to write. This model, well you can't really see how she looks like, is SUPER DUPER UBER pretty. I think the girls of every blog I've just read, model after her. And she actually writes, although she has about a million pictures, she actually types out long entries. But they're in chinese, so I have no idea what she's writing. Well one more reason to brush up my chinese.

Foot note aside, I think the vending machine is every girl's dream. It would be completely awesome to buy shoes that way!!! It's completely convenient. And I think it's a great way to store shoes. Okay so I'm probably excited over nothing, and maybe it's just me being wierd, but I would LOVE to buy a shoe from there! Hmmm I wonder if it's just a prop. One more thing to add to the many mysteries present in my life.

I just took out all my WITCH magazines and started rereading them. Well they're more comics then anything else, but it makes me happy, so who cares? You know they're not cheap. It's like $6 an issue and I've got like 70 overs issues!!! That's over $400!!! I could have bought like tons of other stuff for indulging upon.

I'm kinda a glad Jes talked me out of buying that Zara coat, cause my Dad came back from London today and he bought winter jackets for my brother and me. I don't think it's as nice as the one from Zara, but it's not hideous at all. It just looks alot like something a Korean girl would wear. It's... There's really no other way to describe it... Cutsie. The Zara one's alot more sohisticated, which is something I'm aiming for, but at least I didn't spend a single cent, so i guess i should stop whining.

Funny story about how my Dad bought the coats. In London right now they're having must go sales like everywhere, I really wish I was there, apparently stuff are going at 4Euros!!! SO CHEAP!!! In Singapore they have huge signs like "70% off storewide", but right at the bottom in really fine print - "up to".

Anyway my Dad's 50 and like most middle aged fathers, they do not shop. Apparently there were these bunch of boys trying on this really nice coat. They couldn't decide whether or not to get it, so they kept passing it around. When they finally put it down, my Dad, and these are HIS exact words, "Swooped in, grabbed it, and walked quickly and silently away". LOL. When he was getting my coat, he asked this random girl if she thought it was nice. She looked at him as though he was perverse. My Dad had to explain it was for his 19 year old daughter. And so, with tons of coats and clothes in his hands, my awesome father joined the queue, which stretched all the way round the building!!! Although my Dad travels alot, he can't stand the cold, so when I think about how he nearly froze his ass off with all the other crazy female shoppers, I think to myself, I have a beyond awesome Dad.

I think it's passed the midnight mark so that means I'm going to be back in school a few hours. I'm really dreading going back, but apparently just like how the Earth spins, it seems I have to attend school. On the plus side, I'll be able to see Denise and everyone else again. We haven't been able to meet up the entire holiday, what with WQ working, Mushroomhead busy with church stuff and everyone overseas, so I'm really glad I'll be seeing them soon. About school, I can't believe I'm the only one who has school on a Wednesday!!! But I guess I don't have anyone to blame but myself. I just had to fail french. I've decided since it's my last semester, I'm not going to skip anymore lectures. Qian's right. I'm paying for my education, so why waste it? It's like throwing money at the school. I guess older people are wiser. Haha. I hope she doesn't see this, she's sensitive about her age. She probably wouldn't anyway, I write way too much and no one would be bothered to read until the end.

Because I've got a butt cramp and it's close to 1 in the morning, I'm thinking I won't end any of my future post like this ever again, cause if I was reading this I'd be really annoyed that the writer is wasting my brain usage by reading about 50 useless words that don't really amount to anything other than annoying the one reading it, I'm going to stop typing.