The Horror of Public Speaking

When you have a bad day, all you want to do is make awesome dessert with awesome company.

Public Speaking did not go well. I had to give an impromptu speech and I've come to the conclusion that I'm really not good at doing stuff like that. No one, I repeat, no one else froze up in the middle of the speech.

I was given 2mins to prepare for an unknown random topic. Because Fate enjoys toying with me, I got "An Ideal Leader". I would have given almost anything to trade with the guy who got "If You Had Super Powers, What Would They Be?". He turned an awesome topic into something you'd hear at some financial press conference. FYI, I would have said Ben10.

So at that moment, I started to panic, its really hard to get brain juice flowing in the right direction when all you can think of is - "What kind of topic is that? Holy crap. I'm screwed." The only points I could come up with were really lame and I didn't manage to fill my time quota. Plus I ended up being quite repetitive. Back then it seemed like a really hard topic, but now when I think about it, there were actually a lot of things to cover. I could have used my Band as a focal point. I could have said that the Ideal Leader isn't always the one who's at the top. Like Kelly was only Assistant BM but she did a hell lot of a better job than Khairul. But NOOooo, I only came up with those brilliant points after I screwed up.

The totally embarrassing part was when the teacher told the class it wasn't my fault and that the topic was in fact quite difficult. At that point, I just wanted the Earth to open up and swallow me whole. When class ended, the two guys who told me which card to pick came and apologised to me!!! So that added to my embarrassment. I really can't believe they think it's their fault. They actually stood there for about 10mins saying how sorry they were. One of them was the Extreme Sports Guy while the other was Mr Dragon Boat. I can't remember the Extreme Sports Guy's name but I think Mr Dragon Boat is Luke or maybe Quint, well something like that. I really need to find out. They're both kind of cute, sadly I think they're younger than me.

Fate's not completely cruel. I can always count on Qian and Jes to cheer me up. Although most of the jokes seem to revolve around me, at least they make me laugh.

They came over that very same day. Obviously I whined a lot about Public Speaking, you might think I'm a baby, but I needed some form of relief. We made really messy Tiramisu, minus the alcohol. According to Jes, I was too cheapo to buy any. It's not completely my fault! I thought we could use wine, she did say anything sweet, how was I to know wine isn't one of the chemicals allowed for our little experiment?

I guess Jes deserves much of the credit, seeing as she borrowed the recipe from Samuel. It actually turned out really good for our 1st time, considering the fact that I'm as close as you'll get to a natural disaster in the kitchen. Honestly, a few months ago, Jes was not far from me. If I was a Tsunami, she would have been the Earthquake. But ever since she ended up with Samuel, her cooking skills have improved tremendously.

Jes left early, but Qian stayed for dinner. We were both way too lazy to get our butts out of the house. So we ordered chemically engineered chickens from KFC and swooned over Korean stars on Youtube. Singapore guys have about 0 potential when compared to Korean ones. I still think Super Junior beats 2pm. Qian really needs to come over from the dark side.

Striked Out

I think I'm meteorological. In a way, rain makes me sad. Maybe I'm just having one of those days when I want everyone to just leave me alone.

For clarification purposes, I'm 19 years of age. I shouldn't have a bedtime. If I want to stay up till 3 in the morning reading books in my well lit room, I should be allowed to.

I should probably start with last night, or rather early this morning. Since this is a flashback, try imagining the screen fogging up or breaking out into a ripple effect.

Strike 1 - In the wee hours of the morning, my Mother did not have to come in and pick a fight with me over something as trivial as staying up too late. My class started at 8am today and if she was so afraid my Dad would be late she should just tell me to go to school on my own, but no, she couldn't give up the opportunity to continue the less than civil conversation we had earlier on.

Strike 2 - My bag was uselessly heavy. Why? Well, humans don't work well under urgency and unfortunately, I'm human. While being rushed by my Mother earlier on, I grabbed "Career Communications" and "Mobile Communications". Two books. Two subjects. None of which I had today.

Strike 3 - I found out my driving's at 6pm and not 4pm. I got my dates mixed up. I was supposed to have a lesson on the 10th but I thought it was today. So basically I just threw away $36. Thinking my driving's at 4pm, I arranged to be at ESPN at 2pm, and to meet my friends at 6pm. I thought I could fit my schedule in such a way that I would not have to sit around and wait. Plus, I was hoping to avoid my parents until tomorrow morning. Unfortunately, destiny is cruel. By the time I got back home from ESPN, I really did take my time, it was only 4.30pm. Yes, I had to sit around and do nothing except trying to avoid my Mother's icy glare. I couldn't meet my friends for dinner because now I had driving. By the time I finished with the lesson it was already 7.30pm and I was just too exhausted to meet them. I would have had to take the train all the way to Bishan. I feel really bad for dumping R, Ben and whoever else who went, but I just couldn't muster the energy needed to laugh, joke and be normal when I had such a bad day played out in front of me. Guys, if it's any consolation, my day really sucked.

Usually, you strike out at 3, but my tension needs to be released somehow and I don't feel like calling up my friends and telling them how screwed my day went. It's bad enough reliving it here.

Strike 4 - Once again, WQ didn't know how to shut up when she's supposed to. Like I said before she's a good friend and maybe the whole Rainy Day / Quarrelling with my Mother / Bringing ALL the Wrong Books / Screwing my Schedule thing just got to me but she is so annoying when she adds lip. We were at McDonald's finishing breakfast, just talking. Normal random everyday discussions. WQ doesn't contradict anyone else but me. She's always insisting that I'm wrong, but if Jordan or anyone else takes my side, she'll automatically come over. Is she trying to get punched? So today when things got really intense, I just shut my trap and stopped looking at her, because if I didn't I would have started yelling at her. WQ should learn not to push her luck too far. I've been holding myself back because I consider her a friend. I'm usually quite mean, but go on, continue stepping on my tail, I'll turn from Bitch to Crazy Fucked Up Bitch who just met her Boyfriend's other Girlfriend.

Although my day was about 90% screwed, after keying in the amount of hours I've logged, I'm pretty proud of myself. All I will say is I'm going to have to try really hard not to spend my next pay cheque all at once.

I missed out on Halloween yesterday cause I was working, Arsenal 3-0 Tottenham. On the plus side I just got my pay today. Totally ecstatic over it! I really need the extra cash. I was supposed to join the guys at the Night Safari, but I started at 8.30pm so there was no way I would have made it on time. Heard they dressed up and it was tonnes of fun! They went Zirka after. Not my scene, but it would have been totally cool.
I was just thinking how amazing it would be if I lived in a country that actually celebrated Halloween. Trick-or-Treating would probably be the best! Although I'm probably too old for it. I just love the idea of scary costumes all around! I actually Googled Halloween, and I probably would list it down, but it's history is way too long. Signs of me needing a boyfriend.

My Brother finally got me my extremely belated Birthday present! It's just shoes, and because I'm a girl I have every right to write this, but it's really pretty shoes. It's cheap too, well compared to his present it is. Check out my far from perfect legs.
I think it'd look really good with my winter wear. I actually plan on wearing it to Japan, but I'm not sure if my Aging Mom would let me have my way. When I told her I was going to wear this to there, she was like, "NagNagNagNagNag..." She's probably right, cause I can't even walk straight in flats without tripping, I actually tripped over sand, but that's another story. Not that I would admit my Mom's right, cause when you're 19, you're supposed to look totally hot, which is something I'm trying really hard to achieve. I don't think I'm getting there anytime soon.

Jennifer came back to school the other day. She was already really skinny to begin with. Now she's even skinnier after going through all that Chemo. I feel so bad for her, but my friends are right, there isn't anything I can do for her.
I think my Public Speaking presentation went really well, it was nerve wrecking at first, but then I sort of eased up. I don't think any one in the class actually understood our presentation, they just clapped politely at the end. It wasn't that we were unorganised or confusing, it's just really dry, and if I had listen to "How To Begin & End Your Speech", I would tune out too.

I'm watching Miranda Cosgrove's "Stay My Baby" MV on Nickelodeon and I'm thinking she has awesome skin color. I guess you'll only have that sort of skin tone if you're Caucasian or an Albino for Asians.