I Hate Pink. I Hate Rafiq.

I realised my entries are getting shorter and shorter. It's not my fault. My hands are just plain lazy. I'll punish them later. I'll make them hold ice cold yoghurt while I eat it. That'll teach them!

So first on my agenda, I FAILED MY DRIVING PRACTICAL!

I whined a lot to like everyone I know, so there's no need for that now. Jes was probably super annoyed with me. Haha. Sorry Babe. As thanks, you get one whole bowl more of my Mom's curry then Qian.

I've never mentioned Rafiq have I? Here's a little get to know session.

R - Retard
A - A Retard
F - Fucking Retard
I - I Think He's A Fucking Retard
Q - Questionably Retarded

Yes. I've never disliked anyone as much as him. In fact my level of dislike for him is probably as high a Rhama's or the Tan family's.

Rafiq was born with the gift of the gap. He opens his mouth and is able to insult everyone within a 3m radius of him. It's actually quite amazing when you think about it. Imagine. Someone who thinks he's really successful and experienced, someone who brags about his so called amazing life, and who's actually the opposite of what he says.

There was once Rafiq said to the class in general, "Some of you here, are so bloody cocky. Well for your information, you're only allowed to be cocky when you've made it in life. When you're successful." I think he was pin-pointing me. For some unknown reason he doesn't like me. Then again he doesn't like anyone else much either.

So anyway, my question to him is, what defines success? Do you think being a lecturer at 40 is successful? Is being an educator what you call "made it in life"? I have nothing against lecturers, in fact I like all my current lecturers. They're wonderful people. The difference between them and him is that they actually like teaching. They like helping students. That's why they became educators. I seriously doubt Rafiq's reason for being a teacher is because he wants to tempt the minds of young adults. He's always about 1/2 an hour late for class, and when he does turn up, he always goes,"Get your books out and read pages XX to YY" I guess I should thank him, Career Communications is probably the only school book I've read cover to cover. It's really good value for money.

Rafiq has inferiority complex. Like I mentioned, the incredible ability to insult everyone within a 3m radius of him. According to my friend, it's because he feels the need to. It makes him feel better than us. Imagine. A 40 year old man having to criticize others who are 1/2 his age just to make himself feel better. He says he's done freelance editing for various publishing's, but I seriously doubt he did anything big scale like he claimed. If he were really good, he would go into the whole journalism thing fulltime. Like I said he doesn't like to teach, and if he's that good at editorial work, what's stopping him? My conclusion is that he's just not up to mark.

Last week, I had my leg all wrapped up. I sprained my ankle during the New Year and it didn't heal right, so I had to get bandaged again. The 1st thing Rafiq said when he walked in and saw my leg was, "So who's boyfriend did you steal to get that injury?" Do you know what its like to have to smile when someone's insulting you in front of your whole class? I swear wanted to hit him. I hated myself so badly for lying still while he whipped me. Later on, we had to split into groups. I was with Mushroomhead and Ninja Turtle. You see, Rafiq likes to walk around and give little pieces of "advice", well mostly insults, cause that's what he did when he came to my group. "Cassandra, when people see you, they don't really like you. You have this look that people just don't like. It's your face, you should learn to tone it down." Fuck it. Even if you don't like me, you don't do personal attacks in front of my friends. It's not just rude, it also shows what bad personal ethics you have. I don't have interpersonal skills? I'm not the one who's so strongly disliked by my class. I'm not the one who can't say 2 whole sentences without insulting someone. I'm not 40 and taking out my frustrations on so called children. I'm not the most popular person out there, but I do have friends. Bloody good ones I might add.

I don't need to insult others to feel good about myself. I don't think it makes you in anyway better than the people on the receiving ends. Rafiq thinks he's so smart. Recalling his stupidity, he wrote "RENDEZVOUS" on the board and said he was very sure we couldn't pronounce it right. "For your information it's RONDEVOU~. You don't pronounce the Z or the S" He said he couldn't pronounce it at 16 so he was very sure us being Engineering students couldn't pronounce it either. He really shouldn't stereotype us. I could pronounce that word when I was 13. My brother could pronounce it at 10. I've met people who are in so many ways better than Rafiq. If he thinks he's got it made, he needs a good slap to wake him up. If he thinks he's one of the smartest person I've ever met, he is so wrong. I know people who ooze intelligence. Who's very presence makes you feel stupid. Trust me. There is no way Rafiq is in either if that category. Rafiq is all excessive talk and no evidence of action. Honestly, he is such a joke. I can't understand how his wife stands him. She was probably blackmailed or forced to marry him, I seriously doubt she had a choice.

P.S.

I hate pink. This is mostly a hate entry.

Matthew Reilly's Jack West series is at long last out. The Five Greatest Warriors. I'm beyond ecstatic. The last book ended with a huge cliff hanger.

Rut.

For the past few weeks, this has been the playlist of my life.

1) Drag butt to school
2) Use brain during driving lessons
3) Stay awake for work

They're on "repeat" mode. I usually put them on "shuffle" too.

I have totally no life, I'm completely in a rut, and there isn't anything I can do about it!!! At least not until this Friday when I take my TP. I'm really nervous. I should actually push that thought to the back of my head, unfortunately, that's where I store just about everything else.

Shit. I'm off to work again. Well at least I can see half naked hot guys on the computer. All I get back home is a skinny monkey and a smelly gorilla.

2010

My 1st entry for 2010 :

DARN IT I'm bloody 20 & I'm STILL single!!! I think I need to cry now.